December 2011
55 posts
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So I guess this is where I'm supposed to turn...
This seems to be the only reason we divide our time in years. So we have excuses to repeat holidays and birthdays. So we can relentlessly create unachievable goals for ourselves because we can’t find a way to stop being so fucking lazy.
I’m in a constant state of self-reflection, so this day isn’t any different for me except for the fact that I could make a huge list of my...
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Constantine, Twenty-four and Shameful
When I told you…
You emptied the medicine cabinet with one swipe of resentment. Laid your criticism on the bed and I wrapped my body in the blanket. The breakup had a heartbeat of it’s own.
I crushed a suitcase full of bones and candy hearts and watched as we fell apart from inside out. “I know it’s for the best,” I said “I must do this on my...
That awkward moment when
nobody gave a fuck about your awkward moment.
gods-revolver asked: Preach, girl. I saw your post below about girls in bands-- especially in metal-- and isn't it kind of disgusting, the amount of prejudice we face just because of our gender? No matter what I'm playing or how well I'm playing, no compliment or comment is made without the "for a girl" tack-on at the end. As if music is a man's world. Fucking please. Thank you for being...
beccaxlee-deactivated20120507 asked: I just read your post on cosmetology and not lying to customers. ITFA. I'm in cosmo school right, and I hate telling my clients the stuff that my teachers say I have to tell them. No, to be perfectly honest, I don't think that you should get a three week touchup. And no, don't buy the $20 purple shampoo. But I can't tell them the truth, because if it gets overheard, I get to...
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I hope that I do not crush your dream of...
I’m not a cosmetologist. I am an artist who happened to be quick to pick up on technique.
I’m not a hairstylist, I am just an artist who seemed to have a knack for detail and color.
I am not a beautician, I am a girl who happened to love the art of beauty products and the mystery of re-creation.
I am not a beauty adviser, I am a typical woman who has read many tips and tricks and...
“You’re so sensitive. You’re so emotional. You’re defensive. You’re overreacting....”
– Yashar Ali: A Message to Women From a Man: You Are Not “Crazy”
Interesting article - and it is written by a man by the way. Above is a summary of the full article.
(via perigee-syzygy)
My six month complex.
What am I doing here?
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Anonymous asked: I have nothing wrong with girls in bands. My only issue is with girls in metal bands. Because for some reason, 9 times out of 10, by some unforeseen force, they have to start actually singing. Now, if a girl has a solid scream, and only screams, then I have no issues. It's as soon as they start singing that I have a problem. Because a feminine singing voice just doesnt fit with metal music. ...
Desire.: Please tell me why you don't care for... →
deafening-silence-for-the-masses:
jennhasfeet:
deafening-silence-for-the-masses:
jennhasfeet:
Looking for complete honesty. Leave me a message anonymously if you feel the need to in my inbox. I may want to strangle you but I will remain calm and open-minded. Thanks!
I honestly don’t think it matters. Women generally have to be better singers or ridiculously good…
This is very...
Desire.: Please tell me why you don't care for... →
deafening-silence-for-the-masses:
jennhasfeet:
Looking for complete honesty. Leave me a message anonymously if you feel the need to in my inbox. I may want to strangle you but I will remain calm and open-minded. Thanks!
I honestly don’t think it matters. Women generally have to be better singers or ridiculously good…
This is very interesting to me. I totally appreciate your input!...
Please tell me why you don't care for female...
Looking for complete honesty. Leave me a message anonymously if you feel the need to in my inbox. I may want to strangle you but I will remain calm and open-minded. Thanks!
the-jerecro-journey asked: Guess what? You won! Out of the two people who wrote an entry for my anonymous challenge, I picked yours as the winner. The line "The ghost of his love left her bleeding on the floor and when she called out his name, only remnants of their passing days echoed from the bare white walls." was really what stuck out -- especially since I wrote that piece of music the moment after the last...
If Fine Fine Titans doesnt work out for one reason...
I swear, I’m moving to Seattle, shaving my head and will never step foot in a salon again.
If you "promote" other blogs at least once a day-
Automatic unfollow.
blancofuego asked: dang ill have to check it out. i dont listen to that stuff much anymore im in my calm music phase haha but im sure its good :)
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I don't belong in a salon,
I belong in a studio, or better yet, on stage. It’s the only place I’ve ever felt really alive. It’s the only place I’ve ever felt accepted and totally natural.
I wish I could just get paid to do what I love instead of trying to mold myself into something that I’m not.
If everyone could just shut the fuck up for ten...
I may not tear out my eyeballs and throw them in your fucking soup.
blancofuego asked: wow u kinda do a lil of everything lol what kind of music u play?
I have a few music soul mates out there
and I’m so glad that I do.
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Acceptance-“So Contagious” This...
“Writers aren’t people exactly. Or, if they’re any good, they’re a whole lot of...”
– F. Scott Fitzgerald (via planb-becomeapirate)
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October 5th, 2005
Straight from my journal:
“I keep asking myself the same question.
How in the hell did I get myself here? It’s about Kalamazoo. It’s about school. It’s about friendships and relationships. It’s about personal achievement. It’s about my emotional state. It’s about dreams and reality. It’s about the past, present, and future. It’s about...
“People who focus on the here and now, without thinking about the impact on the...”
– One trait has huge impact on whether alcohol makes you aggressive (via thoughtfulcynic)
Why is it
there is always that one bitch that just has to leave some kind of asinine comment, turn whatever it is around to be about her, and try pacify the blatant annoyance by sticking “LOL” at the end? Or do they simply “laugh out loud” to make the statement agitate you further?
ITS NOT FUCKING FUNNY OR CUTE.
No matter how happy you are in your situation,
it still stings a bit when you see a former flame ignite in other ways.
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Constantine: Reflecting Nineteen
So what happened to that nineteen year old me? Was she brushed off in a summer breeze or burned off with the autumn leaves?
I never understood what happened in those last few months of my young adulthood. Never came to terms with the heartbreak of lover’s mistakes or the homesickness for a place that I found comfort in hating. Or were those angst ridden sleepless dreams simply...
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"I don't care if anyone likes it; I do this for...
So often, we talk about making music for ourselves. Whether it be a form of release, self-reflection, therapy or just a way to communicate when simple words cannot convey the complex inner workings of our mind, we write to express ourselves. However, if it were true that we solely write to pacify our need for personal gratification, why would we ever release our recordings? Why would we create a...
“Balanced people don’t change the world.”
– Chris Guillebeau, author of The Art of Non-conformity
Always
going to bed alone.
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Dear Self (note from your 18 year old self):
Dear Self, I wish there was an easy way to tell you this, but it’s getting a little old, don’t you think? The arguements and angst we share can only go on for so long. Why do you waste your time, sitting at home on the computer for pointless hours when you could be DOING something with our precious time? Life is short. Stop procrastinating. In the words of Brandon Boyd: “Are you...
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February 10th, 2004
straight from my livejournal:
…Could it be that music is the only thing for me? I have known that all my life, but never has it come to the point where I know for a fact that doing anything else will absolutely bore me to tears…
I want to start a band. I dont want [the] band to make it big, I dont want [the] band to get involved with a record label, I just want to make music. I want...
I'm going to spend the rest of this evening...
I love this. I may follow suit tomorrow.
The only messages I get in my ask box are spam...
Guess I’m not too interesting to the tumblr world!
breathe in & breathe out: jhnmyr: If you want to... →
jhnmyr:
If you want to be truly intimidating,
If you want to make an impact,
If you want to have strong connections with others
just be sincere.
Sarcasm is not an attitude, and it’s not a personality trait. It’s a style of rhetoric meant to be used occasionally to highlight a larger…
Thankyou, Kara, for posting this.
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I am sort of at a loss of what to do now.
This “hurry up and wait” strategy doesn’t sit well with me. I’ve got to be proactive. I’ve got to be on my toes. Laziness is not a word in my vocabulary and anyone who knows me well is aware of my sense of “go, go, go, we’ve got so much fucking things to do and people to meet” even if that is stifled by a false sense of security and communication of...
Struggletown Records: People who call the... →
struggletown:
Sure there are bands who do it for the status, but you can tell those guys a mile away. I think it’s ok to be inspired by bands who were inspired by themselves. Punk and Hardcore is still hard to do well, difficult to sell. That’s good news - work hard at it and get somewhere. Use the internet,…
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Constantine at Thirty-three
I hope my life turns out to be everything that my heart envisioned for me.
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Constantine at Twenty-three
“They paved that sidewalk for a reason” he said as I walked along the highway’s edge. “You could die there, it’s not safe. Your carelessness won’t get you out of this place any faster if we lose you this way.”
He knew what I was running away from while I only knew what I was running towards. My flurried mind only emphasized the future my heart...
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Constantine at Seventeen
I couldn’t hear the ticking of the clock when you started counting down the rotations of your watch. The room blurred, the floor dropped out and I could smell the sweet of your skin from across the table top. Just in arms reach, you set out your hand for me. When I thought my eyes would never move from the home they made in your’s, they fluttered down to see your offering. My...
